Mysterious~♥

Sometime, i choose to be silent and careless...
i know the teory: when you care, you hurt more
experienced uncountable time...
I learn to be calm and steady...
i'm trying to be the perfect me...
The person i decide to be since i step in this society...
I know I'm not strong enough to handle all the things by myself...
I know i still a little girl keep walking my journey to the end of life
I'm not regret on what i choose to do...
I know i don't have that much of time....
Maybe I'm cruel, especially towards BEST friends and families...
the much i care, the much i be cruel to them...
until now, that's only one person who can break through my gap ♡
the only person who can let me put down my mask and be a little weak girl
the only one...=]
i wont force myself to like something i don't like
when i angry, i will distance myself with the person i angry to
i'm unreliable and emotional...
i stay comfort with persons who have mature thinking...
i like to rely on the person who know me...
yet, i'm not used to be the person who let people rely on
You can say i'm weird, selfish....but that's me...
who train me to be like this? God knows~ ^_^
I keep changing~i don't know the real me
i like silent, i like crowd, i like celebration, i like alone...
i like to hang out with Guys, and so girls...
still, haven't meet with my TYPE of girl group...
you don't understand me, i'm not ask you to...
you can't hold me, the let me go...
I don't care, doesn't mean i wont counterattack...
so, don't think i'm always kind enough to let you bully
i'm just don't want to attack anyone...
added a friend is always better than added an enemy
hehe, weido....a mysterious me....
i'm searching it out~
maybe, i will have the answer...soon......

Life is full of Mysterious

The more you walk through, the more you treasure

still have many cave for you to figure out

look back, but keep walk forward

that's life, which no way turn...

it's can't back to the start, but you can walk to the end

with the way you want ♥

You worth something more PRECIOUS~

i cant defy my destiny, my fate....
i cant force my luck to come to me...
i know i own too much~
get an understanding and thoughtful boyfriends~
get some interesting and wonderful best friends~
have such lovely and caring family~
eventhough i gone through many hardship~
eventhough i faced so many unpredictable problem~
eventhough i thought of dying~
i still standing here and walking my path~
continue my education, chit-chat with friends~
laugh out loud together, dreaming together in the midnight....
seriously, i shouldn't request too much....
GOD treat everyone the same...=]
Oh well~ although i always didn't get what i want...
but i still enjoying my everyday....
i love dancing, love singing, love reading~
no one can replace me in this world....
coz i'm who i am....Just the only me....
i believe soon and later, i will become what i dream to be...
and now...i enjoy....my every single moment...
with you or without you...
i will get myself stronger and stronger...
to be who i want~
i have faith on myself, i sure will and can do it~! ^_^
Dont you know? I'm a Princess  ^^
An Angel that bearing the responsibility to bring happiness to the world~v^^v

Sometime, you just not worth for it...

you worth for something more precious....

It will be your no matter what happen...

it wont by your side even you force it to be...

Take it easy and let it go =]

Is it the right time for me to make the decision?

It's always a decision making  in our life....
it's always change time by time...
who am i?
what personality i had and i have to change?
what type of person i am really in?
well, guess i still confusing even i going to be 20th...
have a long and nice chat with roommie...
ya, we're analysing who i am, what is my personality, my strenth and weakness...
seriously, i only know my weakness but not strength...
Yes, i'm sensitive, until sometimes i really get effect by a small thing....
but from the opinion of my roommie...
it can be a weakness or strength...
listen to how she analyse on me, i'm really glad with being her friend...
at least i know i'm not that WORSE nor WORST....^^
she make me change my thinking with both side...(start learning it ^^)
she let me know that this world is not just this way, but another way out...
manythings that i think it's small, she make me think that it's important too...
wow, i really respect her! Admire the way she think...
She told me what is my real problem, what should i change to be...
seriously, i'm thinking over it....
i like her last thing before we end our discussion...
*IF you really want to change, you sure can do it...

your level is not just what i saw, but maybe above higher...

If you really listen to what i say and think deeply on it...

i'm guarantee you will be more successful that SAKURA*
Thanks sis, for putting such a high and wonderful expectation on me...
Maybe...i just don't have the main determination to push me walk forward...
maybe i'm considering TOO much on what i really want to do...
i'm just who i am...i should believe in myself....
i should have faith on my capability...my strength....
Maybe, this time, i should find the way to upgrade myself?
Maybe, it is the time for me to change?
Maybe, it's a evolution of Celyn Liau to become better and successful?
should I?

When nothing goes RIGHT, go LEFT...

A Bend in the road is not the end od the road....

If you think it's impossible, take a breath...

separate the IMPOSSIBLE, you will find IM POSSIBLE =]

 Have faith on youtself, you will not know how strong are you without believe it

No one is in control of your HAPPINESS

you have the power to change ANYTHING about yourself/life that YOU want to change =]

You're SMARTER than you think ^^

starting my new sem last week~
seriously...i still not ready myself to start it...
i'm still in holiday mood...XP
felt bored after my internship...
feel like the time is so "extra" and i had nothing to do....
nevermind~enjoy my life is the best thing!!
in this few week, i had emotional lost control...
suddenly, i feel i want to be alone...
that's why i use to be on past...
suddenly don't want to talk with anyone....
i wondering? huh....
told him about my problem...yet it's doesn't settled but worst...
and we had a BIG quarrel~
dont worry! something like break up will not happen on us...
coz we still love each other and don't want to leave each other alone....
well, it's good for once a long time...
at least each other will know what's wrong, where's stuck....
but, my problem still there!!! emotional still under maintainance!!!
oh gosh~take a bath~~whooo~~~~~~`
yea, not denying...take a bath will make myself more calm...
you're right dear....=]
yea, think of my future now~
planing to take my degree, eventhough i wish work 1st after my diploma...
but...since i feel i'm not that ready to go to work industry...
i choose to study more...Bachelor in Communication....
i wish i could make be different that what i am now....
to be more successful and able to communicate with other more well...
and i'm sure i can do it, with start to train my determination and improve my knowledges...
i know...you...will support me...
so what is my title? randomly? XP
cheers Celyn....you're smarter than you think~^^

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not.

calming down yourself will make you make a more accurate decision =]

my internship is reaching its endpoint~

finally...it's the last week for my internship~
preparing my intern assignment while working~
quite tiring because lack of time...
but glad that i have a group friends that helps me in it....
flash back to my 1st start working at the company...
it's really challenging yet full of fun...
get praised by my director...it's happy...
but when go deeper on it,  i realise...
it's not that harmony and great as what i think....
the two-faces of peoples make me realise this is the real society...
the cruel and heartless society...
but still, i'm glad that, the colleagues that i met is not what i think for...
with their helps, i learnt alot of things...
i learnt how to say no, and brave to say what i think & wants....
thanks to them...i learnt many society knowledges that no one told me before...
improved my communication skills, bit by bit...
thanks to their straight advises, although it might sound uncomfortable sometimes, but it's still an advise...
i realise i can stand stronger than before....the unexpectable me~=]
thus, i will keep looking forward and walk my journey with all the strength i have...
thanks ya interns group...and my seniors =]

if free must come out yam cha ya!! ^^ "这是个千载难逢的好机会啊~"

feel like missing many interesting part~even my roommate faces problem also dunno...
am i a bad friends + listener? why dont everyone speak to me? >.>
why i'm thinking so much? haih~=="
people will find me when they need me, and i always stay here to help...=]
(learn from work) please do not hesitate to contact me XD
i'm kind enough~and i will keep improve myself to be better than others! that's me!
i know i can do it~! pray for me! the future me!! ^^
miss everyone~my families, my best friends group, my hostel members, interns member, college members...
those who walk in my life and love me~
we will miss soon! i believe!
let's prepare for my another busy week~! fighting! gambateh ^^

* Miracle come to you if you know how to grap it...

I knew, and I will cherish and faces every problem with my stength and courage!

Please wait for my transform!! ^^ *

Sorry that my power is so little and cant protect you...

It's public holiday, Kedah Agong promoted....

Earthquake hit Indonesia...aftershock too...

effected Thailand and Malaysia...

i'm thinking...

is it another warning for everyone in this world to notice how much HE hurt?

think back what we had done...

simply throwing rubbish while walking on the road...

is that so hard for you to hold the rubbish a little bit more and throw it into garbage bin?

this small thing you cant even fulfil

how dare you say want to go green!

haih, feel shame to those who hurt the Earth!

feel sorry to the Earth...

sorry that i couldn't protect you by my little power....

pray for the whole world...pray for peace...

Save this earth with you power...

you could change the ending....

我的人生路，走对了吗？

有时候会想,我到底想要的是什么
我的人生并不是如此坎坷
但也并非他人所认为的风平浪静
会是我的问题吗？
接触PR这份工作...
我会开始疑惑，我到底选对科了吗？
我是不是真的喜欢大众传播这个科目
还是我只是因为某些原因放弃了真正想要的
这份工作，让我知道了
原来社会并不善良，而是心机又残忍
一个人，不能只做你自己
要懂得变，包装自己
这份工作的来的压力
说实话，我觉得我还承受不来
庆幸的是，在我身边有那么多支持我的朋友
还有听我倾诉，给与我指导的他
他们的爱，让我可以坚持的走下去
某人曰：真正的朋友，会毫不留情的指出你的错误，希望你改进
谢谢你们，让我了解了这个社会
让我知道，其实我有那么多的不对
我，原来真的不是那么完美
抱歉，带给你们那么多的不方便
我的人生，是该重新选择？还是，坚持的走下去呢？
我不想半途而废，但我做不到完美
真的很沮丧，呵呵...
我的潜能，到底是什么？
我该怎么办呢~~?
疑惑中~~~~~~~~~

sorry to myself...

To Myself,

Sorry that I make you feel uncomfortable every time...

Sorry that I didn't listen to what you say....

Sorry that I didn't take good care on you...

Sorry that I let you sick for so long....

Sorry that I always leave my negative feeling to you....

Sorry that I always give problem to you without solution...

Thousand of Sorry I want to say to you....

every promises I keep, I can't fulfil it....

I feel I'm so troublesome...and useless....

I keep searching for the reason but I cant get it....

I always say that the whole world hate me without reason...

But I didn't think it carefully...is it really my fault...

sorry girl...I gave you so much trouble and uncomfortable...

until now...I feel I'm wrong...and you already not respond to me...

am I too late?

I just want to start over....become another perfect person....

please...respond me....give me some guild so that I can continue my journey....

I really feel so clueless....

Please give me sometime, and grant me some power, for me to be strong again like I used to be when in Form 3..
I will prove to you and everyone that I was once independent, I will be independent again...

God Bless... ><

a long story to flash back~♥

After N-time busy in working and resting~
finally i have a little time to update my bloggie~
hisashiburi naa~~~ ^^
hait, lets start with my working experience~

that's fun to have some friends which is truely friendly and crazy~

Intern Geng ^^

btw, all staff in the company was nice and friendly ^^
my manager teach us many things that we didn't think about it...
she is strict and serious~ but also very friendly and willing to teach~
so embarrassed that bring them so much trouble~ ><
after around 1 month in key-in customer's information~
filtering 10 thousand + addresses~ (could you imaging it!!!)
finally i had new work to do!!!
it's challenging and also exciting!!
i was in charge in the part of serving MEDIA and VIP/VV+IP of our company on our coming exhibition~IBE 2012
wow, it's challenging coz my manager was warned me cant offend MEDIA
it's exciting because i have the chance to get i touch with though "high class" peoples ^^
let's fight for that XP gambateh!!!!
but now, i realize, planning event really not easy to handle~
very stress and challenge~especially BIG event T-T
hmm... should stop my working condition, let's have some fun part~!!
after i work for nearly 1 month~ finally i have some fun to relax!!
that's One Day Trips in Semenyih!!!
woke up at 4am just for climbing mountain and see the sunrise!
it's tiring but really fun!!
had new experiences and recharge myself!
i really like the natural environment~so comfortable~~
glad to have those friends who understand my body condition~
thanks to them~and sorry didn't climb to the top of the mountain~
if i could i sure climb to the top and say : I'm the Queen Of the World!!!!! ^^v
well, i will never forgot that day~25/2/2012, Sunday
done my 2 wishes in a day! climb mountain for sunrise and go to waterfall!!
haha, it's fun!!! i'm glad i had a nice and considerate boyfriends~
thanks to him, i fulfill my wish =]

sunrise -> breakfast -> waterfall -> lunch (fish)

~Sunrise~

~wonderful group~^^

had fun!!! ^^ so happy~ Thankful ><
even the next day i have work~even it's tiring and painful~
but i'm still very happy~is super extreme happy~
can't explain that happiness through words~~hehe ^^
ok next, another fun thing is~
i had my "reunion lunch" with my "family"
my sisters group~haha ^^
finally met up with dajie and dajiefu~
glad to heard they get back together again~
hope that's no more problem between them =]
anyway~it's fun even all plan decided in last minutes~

had pepper lunch, shop in Popular, and archery~

~3 sisters~ exactly same like story XD

haha~hope gt next time XP
need to rest earlier coz 2moro still have to work~arh~~!!
cheer up Celyn Liau ^^

Smile Brings Happiness~~*wink* ^^v

Happiness come when you're ready to accept your sadness
glad to have friends who are able to warm my heart~
grateful i meet my Prince that give me so much fun and happiness
Got'cha!! cheers with me! Grab you happiness with you own!! ^^

a new experience~

hi bloggie~i'm back here~
to tell you a interesting experiences~^^
8th Feb 2012, was my company dinner~
the 1st time attending to the dinner...
enjoy my meal with all staff and friends i just knew no longer...
its interesting, without close friends beside, just with new friends
i sang few song~without mic...
those staff was too professional ald...i like their voices, hehe ^^
well...my boss ask us together to play games before i decide to leave
playing card with those staff and manager..a strange feel @.@
but it's fun ^^
i tried to drink wine, it's bitter but fragrant smell =]
at least its much better than beer @@
i lost the last games when leaving~
and all loser must drink finish whole cup of wine
wow~coke + wine + campaign~
total what i drink~fantastic!!
and finally, i drunk ==
puke seriously when i left my car~fuh~~
the feeling/side effect after drunk is not good
i cant even stand and walk~
the heartbeat is faster in every move i walk...
it's totally suffer~
cant stand up for a while, just can lay at my bed and sleep
huh, pity jor my bibi @@
dun really understand why they can drink so much wine to suffer themselve ==
and i think i wont drink it again~expect in very special condition ^^v
time to bed, night~~~^^
oh, let's conclude what i want to say...
even side effect of drunk is super suffer...
but i really happy and enjoy it very much!
at least i tried to drink wine and know my limit~
happy~~^^

a tiring journey yet full of joy and thrill ^^v

yeah, i'm back~^^
take out some of my busy life to write my blog before sleep =P
had a busy and tire working life~
it's busy and tire, but it's meaningful~
a company with harmony working environment
less gossip, all of our staff concentrate n their work...
even sometime will feel bored, but the feeling not bad sia =]
i was advised by my manager at the 2nd day i work...
unfortunately, my self-confort is mot working...
i cry before she give her advise to me..i was too weak and fragile...
i realise, i really super look down on myself and super lack of self confident...
i sked to get scold, sked to get hurt...that's why i get more hurt
suddenly..i can feel bibi's pain...as to take care of me, big babe to him =]
i'm glad that i take my intern in that company...
even their company didn't have much event, but their exhibition is international level...
not forcing me to do anything, but advise and encourage me to take my step to success..
i still a newbie in working, and still a baby when on bibi's side...
but i know, i growing up...i believe, i can do it...
like what er jie said...i can show them what i have...
long time din chat with er jie le, even she find me in fb, i still didn't reply her...
sorry ya er jie...really too tired jor~we both gambateh in our work ba!!
i will prove that i will be strong after this intern~and i hope i really did~
miss you and dajie here, take good care and stay well ya =]

manythings is just like a maze

when you get in by your own curiousity

and not trying to come out from it

you will not find the way out...

take your step to walk out to the whole world

only you will realise

manythings is not just what you think...

you world will not only part of the sky, but whole

take out your courage, create your miracle

i believe you can do it, so do i ^^v

a new start~Cheers~^^v

CNY cames after Christmas~
i received 3 presents from roommie~
It's beautiful~!! thanks roommies~for care me so much XD
unforturnately, i have to start my internship~
and i will not be in my hostel for 3+ month~
pity roommie, feel sorry for her~
take good care ya~don't stay till midnight only remember to sleep ><

well, the problem that burdenning me for quite a time~settled!!
bibi will take the responsibility to fetch me to work..
since i didn't get their trust +.+
even it's hurt, but nevermind~still can enjoy people fetching me~yuhoo~~^^
pity bibi have to wake earlier with me and jam in trafic~=(
hope my internship can go smoothly~can improve myself that MUCH>o<

gambateh~start my work 2moro, going to sleep lo~if not 2moro cant wake up ><
hehe ^^" ( have to train myself not to be soooooo lazy jor ><)
Cheers Celyn~let's make it become a good start and so ending~^^v

hopeless dream~~>.>

this is a year, full of my DREAM wishes~
in this year, i'm going to start my internship at end of Jan till 2nd week of May
quite a long and tough periods i guess...
have transport problem~which i don't have my own transport
and the environment there is not that safe as i think...
the location is Puchong, my company located in front of the IOI Mall
worker there all using own transport geh...
haha, i think my boss also surprise that i will found it with public transport...
Bibi and family are worrying about how i go to there...
they said Puchong is a complicated place and quite danger...
but what choice...i cant find near~
i have manything to say, but i can't...
bibi ask me to ask for parent to buy a second hand car for me...
but i know that's wont success...i know my family...
they don't trust me...they don't trust that i can drive, or should i say they VERY worry?
a side say i wont and no dare say out what i want
a side say i unable to drive a car steadily
you never give me a try, never give me confident..how can i do it perfectly...
seriously, i'm not genius that never had a try and able to drive it PERFECTLY....
the begin of my intern, searching and get the job...
i know this problem will accur...
no one will say, dun worry...it's ok if u know how to take care on yourself...
no one tell me that i will be able to use public transport to reach the place safety...
all sentence that come in my mind is, it's dangerous...
it's too far, need a car, and so on...
i never get a sentence that cheer me up...
hey man, i'm already a negative person, still you put in those negative advises to me...
how can u expect me to become positive?
i know it's for my own good...but please la, i also gt feeling eh ok?
seriously, i really get hurt when you all say me like that...like i'm useless...
i really very upset and sad...dissapointed + speechless + hopeless
that's what i get through these day...
you think i don't want to go to somewhere which is more safe to me?
you think i so gatal want go such a far place to take my intern?
you think i don't want a car which more safe for transport?
but the problem is don't have...
ask me to say out my feeling, anyone hear?
anyone understand what i want even i say out?
answer is no~what else i can say? u ask me to try, but i already know the answer....
the beginning of 2012, i feel so stress...i really stress...
i really want to hide myself in a dark place which nobody see me....GOD~

anyway...i still need to hold my dream~~ let's see~~=]

My small dream~Myvi 1.5 (A) SE/Extreme~
Total prices : RM 56,5000/RM 61,700 @.@
i like it interal design, gear there XD but so expensive for me
a main but unreaches dream~~=]

this is my second dream~Blackberry Torch 9810 white XD
total prices : RM1988, quite expensive also @.@
i like the design actually~
got touch + keyboard...but the keyboard is quite difficult to use >.@
hmm...

ok, done my dream...haih~~~
1st wish : wish all who i care safety and healthy~ ^_^
2nd wish : wish COMPANY can keep go up successfully and change my family finance problem~
3rd wish : wish i can go through all those hardship and be more positive and happy ^^v
4th wish : i can get what i want and maintaining good relationship and sincere friendship =]

i hope i can grow up very soon, know the good and bad...=]
that's what i dream...even the chances is hopeless...*sigh

每个人都 会有自己的路
每一个起点都会走到终点
有得必有失,不能强求亦不能挽留
自己的路还是得学会自己走
俗语说: 捉得越紧,失得越快
不放开紧握的拳,如何获得更多
或许我真的不够成熟~

a new year