my forever happiness in my life, i guess..?

helo~~ hehe ^^
this blog created is for me to express my feeling~
this time, i want to say~i really like dreaming...
why say so?
everyone beside me should know at least 1 thing...
that's i like to read novel~especially no fact and love~
well, i agree, i really LOVE to read it~SUPER
erm, i don't think it only me like to read..almost every girl love~that's what i know~
maybe people will think...it's normal~
but for me, it's not normal~
why? because i not only LOVE to read, but also LOVE to imagine, and dream
SUPER HUH?? since...primary six, i guess...
before UPSR, who give me the chance to read those book?
who give me the chance to think about LOVE?
it's secret...hehe ^^
but the disadvantage is, it's really effected my study =]
what choice leh, i LOVE it since i start to read =]
maybe...lack of safe, living in fear...it make me find my happiness in something
and my happiness, is dreaming and imagine~^^
reading those book make me feel happy
i think that will be 1 of the reason why i so earlier fell in love (hmm..)
still remember, everytime i go to popular
my body will automatic turn to those book side...
even when secondary, i was no money to buy those book
but still i will turn to there, see also siok ma.. ^^ (zzzz...)
everytime having book fair in secondary school
i will ask my mum to give me some money for buying books
erm...actually i want to buy those book geh..
but if let my mum know, i sure kena scold...
so i will buy some revision book to cover if i want ^^
i dreamed thousand scene of 1st meeting with my prince...
but at last...== (it told u, dream will never come true ==)
yala, i know...dream never come true...
but i still cant stop myself to dream...
coz i can have my happiness when dreaming...
i still remember when i buy 1st no fact novel...
i was so~~~~~happy...
and i read the book 3 times until now i still remember the story...
(wow, crazy girl @.@ )
and i remembered, i asked my bf buy for me....
or i should said, i borrow with him 1st, when i gt money just return?
he's nice, he really brought it for me ^^
that was my memories...a wonderful secondary school memories
until now, i graduated, i "matured"
i still LOVE to read it =]
tell you 1 more thing, this holiday was my greatest holiday ^^
coz i finally can read my books openly everyday~~
wahahah XD
my parent wont stop me, no one will stop me ^^
the only thing i not satisfied is....
why i still cant collect all those book leh~~~!!
online read not siok de...the story like cut and cut de...
haih...i want buy all those book la ><
money money come come~~~
i want A LOT of money~~~~><
ohya, i will be very happy if my gift was those books...
especially gt whole episode de XD
wahahaha~~
well, that's my happiness in my life =]
my bf also cant stop me to read those books...
coz i "met" it 1st ma ^^ don't angry noh, my bibi ^^
i think, i will keep going...
not only in collecting those books, but also my journey...
the real journey that i should walk through the end...
even till now, i still cant confirm what i want to be....
but i will figure it out.... ^^
would u wish me ? sincerely?
haha, is ok if not...coz i still will do the same thing...
my forever happiness~reading~(no fact ==) =]

wow ^^

yeah~~is a nice experience
i change my blog layout, add in songs~
that's what i cant do b4~
not because no time, is don't know how~~
haha~~i'm so happy~~
satisfied with it so much~~
i love you, my blog ^^

i back here...but missing...

i back to Alor Setar 1 week ago~~
start to "work" in relative company
but actually, i was the most free in the company
coz whole day playing my comp and reading
can say as relax and holiday-ING~~
wow..
the only thing i really "work" is wake up at 7 and go work at 8...
lmao, funny rite? i think so...
en! i realize i came back here, my roommie super miss me!!!
she find me everyday "every second" ==
dun so miss me leh~~i scared ><
miss him better ya ^^
haha, jkjk
miss my bibi~~but it's better...
not miss him very much like b4..just miss him...
is ok~~i changing ^^!!
tidy whole house to clean today...
coz parent busy in working
bro n sis-in-law busy in their work and also dunno how to tidy
so, as only ONE girl in the family...
i have to take the responsibility to clean and tidy~~
well~~ its apply since i born =]
damm tired~~!! but see whole house change to more clean and spaces
i'm super happy, coz it's because of me..
i changed it~~!!
wakakaka~~~i quite pro also geh ^^
roommie, dun too stress ya~~ relax relax~~
gambateh in ur assignment oh, dun bad bad ya ^^
bibi~~even i miss u, but still i will fighting till the day we meet again ^^
( actually soon~2 more week we meet again liao ==)
remember do ur revision ya, abo~~
gambateh neh~~
we all fighting together even not in same area~~
good luck and miss eu ya~~
holiday~i gonna to spend u meaningfully ><
i miss you so much...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0G3_kG5FFfQ&ob=av2n
dedicate this song to the one i miss...=]

unable to make a decision, huh?

this few day...i was so upset...
14th was my 1st day of exam...
but i rushing with my photograph assignment till didn't prepare for exam..
the most stupid and yim jim subject i hate
i like photograph, but because of the subject i took
i start hate photograph...
because of my lecturer, and also my photo skills
whatever....
finally finish my assignment, even just completed 80%
i start to study and print out a copy of photo assignment
unluckily, i forgot to take my exam docket along with me
i was so scared, because without that, i cant take my exam
well, sort of...
lucky gt my roommie...she support me go through those hardship
is it roommie stand for, she told me that...
so touch when heard what she said...
my tear nearly drop down....
thanks ya, accompany me the time during my exam...
2nd day of my exam...
my roommie waked up earlier than me
she prepared breakfast for me to hv energy in study my subject
feel sorry with her...she no class but still decide to accompany me....
this time, this sem was the terrible sem for me...
even there are so many happiness
but it also contained sadness...
yup, that was a exam with least preparation
but because of my roommie, this exam i go through it normally..
thanks for ur encourage, meow~~^^
but, i lost a chance to a leadership...
reason is because i don't want to waste my bus ticket
stupid rite? i, myself din hold the chance well...
cant blame anyone...
sorry meow...today make u worry le...
i'm ok now...haha, i'm pretty lovely charming girl lai XD
dun worry me XP
i'm still weak in making a decision...
well, i have to learn it ==
have a nice heart to heart talk with roommie last nite...
we shared our dark secret and i get some experiences from her...
not to deny that she was a nice friend to stay along...
the 3rd best gift from God...
dunno how was my darling, hope our friendship still remain like b4....
wish she will be happy and we will be forever friend...
and hope my roommie can has her true love soon and later~
faidi hold it tight ya, meow~~~
u can do it, try to catch him~~
i was the 1 to take action to know my bibi
if not we wont walk until today...^^
so, u can do it too...kayu i ald changed to romance guy
u also can...gambateh neh!!!
haih~~ going back to hometown 2moro morning...
start to work lu~~
celyn liau, gambateh neh~~
dun forget ur dream and ur promise!!!!!
cheers cheers~~~

unforgetable memories~~

Going to celebrate my 5th anniversary~~
before that, i want making a present secretly...
and i was not enough sleep for 2/3 days
not only because of it, also because of my assignment and something else
this middle of December, bibi going to HongKong with his family
i was invited, buy unfortunately i cant follow..
it's a chance for me to see the other country, the other culture
but i miss it...what can i do? i wasn't have freedom on it...
hehe...never mind, i will gt the chance soon...
maybe because he know exactly how i feel....
he and his friend going to watch movie and skating...
i was invited by him, surely i ask my roommie too
if not, i was the only girl there...
Just happen with the plan, and the day was our 5th anniversary...
wow, it's like planning before...
starting met with them, i was feel so uncomfortable...
maybe because they are guy? haha
but luckily, i have my roommie and bibi, and + his friend was all nice
so we mix with each other happily...and slowly i felt comfortable being with them
i skated before, but now is the 2nd time i skate again...
still have the fear on skate skating rink..
i was fell down in front all of them...so embarrassed...
but gt bibi holding my hand, it's alright...
bibi learned fast, he can skate and he holding my hand and teach me
haha, so sad, he was 1st time play skating...
erm, since his friend was single, so i create a chance to let my roommie mix with them
if possible can become a couple huh ^^?
it's work...haha
ask one of my bibi's friend who know how to skate go and teach her..
and when i turn my head back, they was holding hand and skate...
it's make me flashback to a scene in a movie~~
"do you know, in skating rink, when a girl give her hand to a guy, mean to give her whole life to tat guy"
it doesn't mean what, but....haha ^^
he patiently teach my roommie how to skate, and i have my "teacher" too...
slowly, we all learned how to skate...
i was so happy with bibi's accompany..
still remember tat time i was happy with "flying" by him...
and when we want to reach our friend there...
i was unbalanced and fell down...
his friend want to hold me but finally fell down too...
haha, his friend said, i was a pin, they all fall down when i reach
even its so embarrassing, but still i felt very happy...^^
me, Celyn, bibi, andy, roommie, katrina, and his friends, Khai Meng, Jin Zeong, Krissna
that's was our memorable memories in skating rink...for me, that is..
after skate, we go for our lunch..bibi's another friend came for movie together...
again, we arranged the "couple" sit together...
we chit-chat....and making a small joke on them...
interesting , their faces slowly became a red apple~~
haha....so cute ^^
after having a nice lunch, we went to movie...
again and again, we all automatically arranged them to sit side by side
haha, it's was funny and interesting ^^
the show was nice and funny, Nasi Lemak 2.0
the happiness was surrounding all of us, thus made our "trip" end happily...
the first sight of my roommie to him is good, gentlemen, considerate and patient...
don't know the answer of him, but hope they will become a couple..
i guest i think too much...but that's my hope ^^
good wishes for them...
if they are meant to be together, we no need make any chance...
look forward to my genting trip with them again...
but this "couple" is so~~ match...both have class on saturday, sweat dou ==
but i will never forget this day....thanks ^^

changed?

i don't know it is good or bad
i don't know what should i consider it as good or bad
re-read back those posts i wrote in this 2 year
i realize..i changed a lot...not too bad, not too good...
something had changed to bad, and something had changed to good
erm...i think....emotional? way of thinking?
i think i can control my emotional better than before, isn't?
my way of thinking...er, maybe....it is good for me, and my future life...right?
the bad is, i changed to be lazy, and rely on my beloved...
the starting on my diploma journey, i felt suffering...
or should i say, i keep thinking to give up and go back to my little warm world?
that time, i keep calling him to come here and accompany me
what he said cant even go in my mind
ended up, we quarrel, i angry him..
hehe, childish right? i think so...
slowly, i comfort with the situation and environment...
that is the start i changing little bit...
i pushed myself to be more confident and matured..
pushed myself to be good and prove them who i am...
i own my friend, sure it not a long relationship...
faced many problem, but it not ruining my confident
my heart was getting stronger though it...
yes i can feel it...i changed
i very happy with that, sure with my dearest...
still that word, it not standing longer...
the next year....i was reset...to the beginning me
know what? i still very silly and believe everyone
i never thought someday, someone may harm me...
when it come, i was so shocked...
but thanks to them, i was understand well with the humanity and reality now
how to survive in this society is what i need to learn
maybe...God think is time to give me a grown up gift
God sent me a great present, that's met with my roommie
a nice girl that will understand me, took care of me well and treat me nicely...
i was so appreciate..when i think to give up...
that will be a surprise for me...
my beloved, my darling and my roommie...the great presents i get...
a great friend group in secondary school....
what else i want? more attention?
hehe....i really change a lot right?
my darling, do you think so?
my beloved, do you think so?
my roommie, maybe u don't know who exactly i am when i was in secondary school...
so i wont ask for your opinion ^^
i wish i can change more better....and i gonna to fix it up
it's a special day for me too, remember it ya, my beloved bibi ♥ ^^
the more happiness i hold, the more challenge for me in future...
but i will try to be brave, i will try my best to hold my happiness and sweetness tight
i, gonna to change~~~
^^