Thursday, March 29, 2012

sorry to myself...

To Myself,
Sorry that I make you feel uncomfortable every time...
Sorry that I didn't listen to what you say....
Sorry that I didn't take good care on you...
Sorry that I let you sick for so long....
Sorry that I always leave my negative feeling to you....
Sorry that I always give problem to you without solution...
Thousand of Sorry I want to say to you....
every promises I keep, I can't fulfil it....
I feel I'm so troublesome...and useless....
I keep searching for the reason but I cant get it....
I always say that the whole world hate me without reason...
But I didn't think it carefully...is it really my fault...
sorry girl...I gave you so much trouble and uncomfortable...
until now...I feel I'm wrong...and you already not respond to me...
am I too late?
I just want to start over....become another perfect person....
please...respond me....give me some guild so that I can continue my journey....
I really feel so clueless....
Please give me sometime, and grant me some power, for me to be strong again like I used to be when in Form 3..
I will prove to you and everyone that I was once independent, I will be independent again...
God Bless... ><

Sunday, March 18, 2012

a long story to flash back~♥

After N-time busy in working and resting~
finally i have a little time to update my bloggie~
hisashiburi naa~~~ ^^
hait, lets start with my working experience~
that's fun to have some friends which is truely friendly and crazy~
Intern Geng ^^
btw, all staff in the company was nice and friendly ^^
my manager teach us many things that we didn't think about it...
she is strict and serious~ but also very friendly and willing to teach~
so embarrassed that bring them so much trouble~ ><
after around 1 month in key-in customer's information~
filtering 10 thousand + addresses~ (could you imaging it!!!)
finally i had new work to do!!!
it's challenging and also exciting!!
i was in charge in the part of serving MEDIA and VIP/VV+IP of our company on our coming exhibition~IBE 2012
wow, it's challenging coz my manager was warned me cant offend MEDIA
it's exciting because i have the chance to get i touch with though "high class" peoples ^^
let's fight for that XP gambateh!!!!
but now, i realize, planning event really not easy to handle~
very stress and challenge~especially BIG event T-T
hmm... should stop my working condition, let's have some fun part~!!
after i work for nearly 1 month~ finally i have some fun to relax!!
that's One Day Trips in Semenyih!!!
woke up at 4am just for climbing mountain and see the sunrise!
it's tiring but really fun!!
had new experiences and recharge myself!
i really like the natural environment~so comfortable~~
glad to have those friends who understand my body condition~
thanks to them~and sorry didn't climb to the top of the mountain~
if i could i sure climb to the top and say : I'm the Queen Of the World!!!!! ^^v
well, i will never forgot that day~25/2/2012, Sunday
done my 2 wishes in a day! climb mountain for sunrise and go to waterfall!!
haha, it's fun!!! i'm glad i had a nice and considerate boyfriends~
thanks to him, i fulfill my wish =]
sunrise -> breakfast -> waterfall -> lunch (fish)
~Sunrise~
~wonderful group~^^
had fun!!! ^^ so happy~ Thankful ><
even the next day i have work~even it's tiring and painful~
but i'm still very happy~is super extreme happy~
can't explain that happiness through words~~hehe ^^
ok next, another fun thing is~
i had my "reunion lunch" with my "family"
my sisters group~haha ^^
finally met up with dajie and dajiefu~
glad to heard they get back together again~
hope that's no more problem between them =]
anyway~it's fun even all plan decided in last minutes~
had pepper lunch, shop in Popular, and archery~
~3 sisters~ exactly same like story XD
haha~hope gt next time XP
need to rest earlier coz 2moro still have to work~arh~~!!
cheer up Celyn Liau ^^
Smile Brings Happiness~~*wink* ^^v
Happiness come when you're ready to accept your sadness
glad to have friends who are able to warm my heart~
grateful i meet my Prince that give me so much fun and happiness
Got'cha!! cheers with me! Grab you happiness with you own!! ^^