hopeless dream~~>.>

this is a year, full of my DREAM wishes~
in this year, i'm going to start my internship at end of Jan till 2nd week of May
quite a long and tough periods i guess...
have transport problem~which i don't have my own transport
and the environment there is not that safe as i think...
the location is Puchong, my company located in front of the IOI Mall
worker there all using own transport geh...
haha, i think my boss also surprise that i will found it with public transport...
Bibi and family are worrying about how i go to there...
they said Puchong is a complicated place and quite danger...
but what choice...i cant find near~
i have manything to say, but i can't...
bibi ask me to ask for parent to buy a second hand car for me...
but i know that's wont success...i know my family...
they don't trust me...they don't trust that i can drive, or should i say they VERY worry?
a side say i wont and no dare say out what i want
a side say i unable to drive a car steadily
you never give me a try, never give me confident..how can i do it perfectly...
seriously, i'm not genius that never had a try and able to drive it PERFECTLY....
the begin of my intern, searching and get the job...
i know this problem will accur...
no one will say, dun worry...it's ok if u know how to take care on yourself...
no one tell me that i will be able to use public transport to reach the place safety...
all sentence that come in my mind is, it's dangerous...
it's too far, need a car, and so on...
i never get a sentence that cheer me up...
hey man, i'm already a negative person, still you put in those negative advises to me...
how can u expect me to become positive?
i know it's for my own good...but please la, i also gt feeling eh ok?
seriously, i really get hurt when you all say me like that...like i'm useless...
i really very upset and sad...dissapointed + speechless + hopeless
that's what i get through these day...
you think i don't want to go to somewhere which is more safe to me?
you think i so gatal want go such a far place to take my intern?
you think i don't want a car which more safe for transport?
but the problem is don't have...
ask me to say out my feeling, anyone hear?
anyone understand what i want even i say out?
answer is no~what else i can say? u ask me to try, but i already know the answer....
the beginning of 2012, i feel so stress...i really stress...
i really want to hide myself in a dark place which nobody see me....GOD~

anyway...i still need to hold my dream~~ let's see~~=]

My small dream~Myvi 1.5 (A) SE/Extreme~
Total prices : RM 56,5000/RM 61,700 @.@
i like it interal design, gear there XD but so expensive for me
a main but unreaches dream~~=]

this is my second dream~Blackberry Torch 9810 white XD
total prices : RM1988, quite expensive also @.@
i like the design actually~
got touch + keyboard...but the keyboard is quite difficult to use >.@
hmm...

ok, done my dream...haih~~~
1st wish : wish all who i care safety and healthy~ ^_^
2nd wish : wish COMPANY can keep go up successfully and change my family finance problem~
3rd wish : wish i can go through all those hardship and be more positive and happy ^^v
4th wish : i can get what i want and maintaining good relationship and sincere friendship =]

i hope i can grow up very soon, know the good and bad...=]
that's what i dream...even the chances is hopeless...*sigh

每个人都 会有自己的路
每一个起点都会走到终点
有得必有失,不能强求亦不能挽留
自己的路还是得学会自己走
俗语说: 捉得越紧,失得越快
不放开紧握的拳,如何获得更多
或许我真的不够成熟~