i'm Negative.. u know =]

i'm back...here to say...
he's back..back to my side...brought many present for me...
i'm so happy...sincerely...i planned to act angry toward him..
but when i saw him, i realise i smile...
i really miss him that much, till i cant even angry him...
going to pasar malam with him...i'm happy...
i'm appreciate everytime he's beside me...i feel safe =]
but i guess..he don't know...he don't know how important is he for me...
the 2nd nite...we quarrel...seriously...i was worry...
worrying my internship...i know think of the past doesn't helps...
but i cant control myself to think of it...
i feel sad..i chat with meow...but still i cant get myself better...
i even start feel her word is annoying me...sorry...
guess i change back to that me....that negative and sadness...me...
maybe sick make me feel uncomfortable....maybe i'm think too much....
maybe i feel that this place not giving me a comfortable and safe environment for me...
keep trying to protect myself from being hurt...everytime every moment...
is tiring....i wish...i can hold it on....i'm suffering...
see, all negative thinking..haha...
this few day...my mind keep pop out this sentence...他不知道我到底有多爱他
dont ask me why..i really dunno...feel funny when i think of this sentence...
he dont know? no, he know it well....
who can bring back the happy me? i want....that time....
2011 is going to the end...and start 2012...
a new year...a year full of prediction for the end of the world...
but i'm still =] no changed..at all XP
glad to have them..by my side...
like what she post to my fb wall...
总有人默默为你付出...你要珍惜，不是每个人生出来就要对你好
haha...haih... life is lone....Sakura...teach me....train me...to become like you...

总有人默默为你付出...
你要珍惜....
不是每个人生出来就要对你好