i'm just a little girl...that need u by my side...

i cant believe...i'm writing my blog in this time....
i have no one to say...to tell that i'm suffering....
yup...i'm a girl that always want to win....easily give up and sked to lose....
i sked....that's why i wont try if i know that's no result...
well...i fail in getting the job...my 1st apply....because i was late...
my six-sense ald told me, i will fail...i know it....
but when it turn to reality, surprisingly, i really feel sad...
i keep finding for new job, but i sked to ask...scare in replying them...
i rely on him...rely on someone who i can rely on....
she's right...that's my job, my intern....i shouldn't ask for anyone helps...
i shouldn't wait for him to decide for me...but i'm really scare....
meow, i'm not angry with u, but myself...i'm too weak...i'm scare....
u see i'm strong...but i'm not....sorry...
i wish u were here....my dear....u give me support everytime i fall...
i know i should ald stand up myself and walk forward independently...
i know every single advises that u all want to tell...but i just cant make it...
i know u're in holidaying and i shouldn't annoying u...
i know u're tired for whole day and so continue with 2moro...
i really do....but i just.....want to chat with u.....
so sorry that i cry again...but i cant hold on anymore....
i'm worried....i'm scared...
oh well....stop with those negative thinking Celyn Liau...
everything will be ok....u're strong even ur heart is fragile...
u're lucky than anyone...dun complain ald....
stand strong...dun rely on anyone ald...u're nt a kid anymore....
u wish u're strong and independent girl in ur story...
so in reality..u hv to be too...u can do it...
u're always....have urself to love u.....no one else will love u more than u love urself....
dear, u don't know...how important u're for me...how much i need u by my side...
u dont know it well....heh...