thinking,,,wonder?

i go back with parent after working, going to my new house which hvnt decorate
yup, still not complete yet...
so now i still staying in my old house, a KAMPUNG that i live for 19 years...
quite sad when think it back..know why?
it's a nice place..clean and natural…full with my childhood memories...
but i will leave it soon...it has been darken...
next location...a new shopping center near to my new house, Tesco
enjoyed my dinner there with my parents, it's nice
not because the food, but the people i with...=]
miss my aunt who love me much since i born, so decide to go her house for chit-chat..
well, not me..is my parent...I'm still not good in communicating with elders...
or should i say, everyone i don’t fully trust? wee~~~
so, i just sitting thr, watching movie in 8TV, listen to their talk...
(title of the movie: the fugitive, Plan B, it's nice!! waiting bibi dl for me ^^)
bibi, now i know why u so like to listen to elders compare to younger...
even sometimes their conversation quite nagging...but its meaningful...
they look back on past, but as a motion to fight for future...
listen to their conversation, i realize I’m so childish all the time...
keep look back on my past, self-pity all the time...
i look on my future, but not trying my best to achieve it...not in 100%
i always ask for reason...why they treat me like that, how can it be that...
i always throw the problem to the one i trust..and never try to solve it myself..
always waiting for solution.... bibi, meow, this two people who treat me sincerely...give me fully helps…
i will only solve the problem myself when i was angry or sad, WITHOUT their helps...
well, I'm digress...(why i always like that huh? ><)

meow, do you think I a good friend or bad? What should I keep, and improve?

Well, I think I’m not a good friend, either good person to stay along =]

Bibi, sorry if last nite what I say is hurting you…

Yup u’re rite, our thinking is much more different…ur thinking is mature but I’m childish…

I wont change my childish thinking, but I will start to follow your matured thinking

Still left 1 and half years to go, and u say u waiting for me rite ^^?

Like what Sabrina’s post, past became history, its solid

We can’t change its shape, but we can decide the coming day….

So, who want to be the one who train my perseverance?

Bibi, I wonder…if u strict to me 5 years ago…Will the “result” more better?

But, I will not be used to it if u change now ^^

Not sure I will/can make it, but I will try now =]

I like to serve people like waitress!! When I have the chance >.^?

(she is blurring ==|||) (I just more good to express my feeling in Chinese noh ><)
(cheh, give excuses again =.=)(WEI! stop saying me!!! ><)

(it’s fact =.=)(you!! Don’t want to talk with you!! Hn ><)
well, i daydreaming AGAIN ==
know you all blurring with what i talk...never mind, i will make a conclusion later ^^

Headache, guess I’m not enuff rest and drink water @@

Should stop my hand here, hehe ^^

you will not be matured if u don't want to listen to other

facing every hardship with a positive way
saying sorry is not means you're low
but you're ready to change yourself better
elders may nagging, but their talk is meaningful and positive
fight for the people you love, and the life you dreaming for
that's what i want to say in this post...
i'm trying to change, to reach the level you are =]
good luck to me, and all the best to all of you ^^