what is my problem actually?

tired in giving everything...
tired in hoping something...
tired in believing miracles....
tired in waiting someone....
tired in requesting something...
tired in every relationship....
tired in becoming more socialize...
i'm tired....did u understand?
to maintain a relationship isn't easy..
to keep a harmony environment isn't easy...
to keep a good mood isn't easy......
to keep my smile to everyone, isn't easy too....
i'm tired.....did u know?
i'm sad....
i'm angry...
i'm dissapointed...
i'm helpless....
i'm lack of concern...
i'm in fear....
tired of these emotion which bothering me, did u notices?
i'n not good in socialize, but i have to...
i'm not good in communication, but i have to...
i'm not brave in everything except love, but i have to...
i want to write, but i cant...
i want to relax, but i cant...
i want to be safe, but i cant...
i want to have my own journey, but i cant...
why? can u tell me?
Conclusion :
Celyn Liau is in a super crazy and dangerous situation...
please...someone come and help her...