Complicated~~

This 2 weeks many thing happened
happiness, sadness and loneliness
excited, frustrasted, dissapointed
the only thing i can say is, i feel very complicated
Don't know what i'm talking what shit izzit?
nvm, i also not very clear ==
in this 2 weeks period, i had exercised my leg for more than 10 days
everyday just walk up and down the staircase
i wonder, why those ppl can still walk everyday like that
maybe they already get used to it
last wednesday is one of my housemate birthday
sure we had made a birthday party for her
and seems she very surprise and happy
happy with them too
1st time join with them,crazy with them
previously i just stayed in my room and spent all my time in doing my thing
felt good =]
on that week, tuesday, while i spending my time with bibi
playing "boy" game with him and his friend
*dun think wrong pls ^^ *
suddenly bibi receive the news of his grandpa pass away
we're shocked, and that day, bibi and his bro went to there straight
even i just seem him once, but still...felt sad,
Anyway, he ald recover all, went to heaven and no need to receive any pain
just will say, rest in peace....=]
after that, busy with my new sem subject
Wednesday and Thursday full, can say this 2 days i around 6 only go back hostel
exercise again~~
but quite happy, coz at least can cook with bibi
Newstyle Western food, salad, fruit, drink
*the way i cook quite different compared with general*
this few day also spent many money, wow, going to pokai soon ==
and tonight...while i headache with doing my homework, i received a call from my mum
my mum ask me either go back with cousin sis this monday to see my smallest aunt
coz my smallest aunt in serious
i say i cant, coz next week really gt manything to do
presentation, attend to an event to get info of 1st assignment, proposal pass up
manything to rush, so i just say thursday after my class i go back
half an hour pass,my mum call me again
she told me my smallest aunt was just pass away
i was shock..quite, because i still hope can rush back on Thursday to meet her last
mum ask me try to communicate with my lecturer and ask for permission to go back
but this is my hwk, my assignment, if i din attend, the lost will just be mine
so i said i cant...
Sorry mum, not i don't want to go back, is just i have to settle my study
sorry smallest aunt, i wish to go back, but i cant....
last meet with my aunt was last sembreak
she ask me to study hard and come back to see her if gt time when i back
sorry i din take the promise, really sorry...
to my precious smallest aunt, wish u rest in peace......

my feeling is complicated...right now...