silent doesn't mean accept

Hi, my sweety bloggie~
i come to u again~
hehe, sorry..
i want to share my feeling with u everyday
but apparently there is not enuff time for me
well, lets start with the few day ago~
i was in a very good mood and positive energy 1 week ago
but someday, don't know why
around me start gt negative energy
and, i affected by it ald...
this few day mood not really good...
i try, not to let myself be down again
but still, not success
cause i know, i'm really sad and unhappy
ya, that's why
the 1 thing i very happy is...
Everynight, i play with my housemate which i less get along with before
well, they are nice, i think
at least, i get back my hapiness when i together with them
their smile, their joke, it really make me happy
very enjoy when chatting with them, and so playing
i appreciate those people who good to me
and im unwelcoming those people bad to me too
i didn't mention everything doesn't mean i accept all
ya, i admit i very easy cry
i admit i'm not strong enough and scare when people talk to me loudly
coz i will think that's scolding me
i scare because i appreciate it
i don't want any broken friendship in my life
did you think about my feeling when i'm silent
i can say, you didn't
i take all my friend as my true friend
i know i'm very silly
but i really hope i can be your true friend
i appreciate friends, that's why
i get hurt
is ok, if u really don't take me as ur friend
i will not take u as friend too
i don't want say anything coz i can still accept it
but please, don't judge my limit
i will not take any action
but in my heart, you'll be the black list
i don't want write down my friend in my black list
it's hurt

seems like i out of topic again
haha~come back come back
ya, this tuesday gt a TV Programme presentation
our tv programme is playing game de
so quite enjoy it
erm, gt some unhappy thing happen when preparing
but, leave it ba
everything will be fine soon =]
ohya, that day when i'm waiting to present
i go in my college theatre hall and play the piano
so happy
long time din touch piano ald
( i din learn it b4, just right hand know play out the rhythm)
proud with myself ^^ *clap clap*

wednesday~thursday~
this 2 night keep playing game XD
haha, battle battle battle
battle all unhappiness
blow it out from my heart
don't make myself suffer with those unnecessary thing
i should happy back, yes i know!!!
i should do it!
gambateh!!
Celyn, live for yourself,
don't live for other!
^_^